When my play was with thee I never questioned who thou wert. I knew nor shyness
nor fear, my life was boisterous.
In the early morning thou wouldst call me from my sleep like my own comrade and
lead me running from glade to glade.
On those days I never cared to know the meaning of songs thou sangest to me. Only
my voice took up the tunes, and my heart danced in their cadence.
Now, when the playtime is over, what is this sudden sight that is come upon me? The
world with eyes bent upon thy feet stands in awe with all its silent stars.
I will deck thee with trophies, garlands of my defeat. It is never in my power to escape
I surely know my pride will go to the wall, my life will burst its bonds in exceeding pain,
and my empty heart will sob out in music like a hollow reed, and the stone will melt in
I surely know the hundred petals of a lotus will not remain closed for ever and the
secret recess of its honey will be bared.
From the blue sky an eye shall gaze upon me and summon me in silence. Nothing will
be left for me, nothing whatever, and utter death shall I receive at thy feet.
When I give up the helm I know that the time has come for thee to take it. What there
is to do will be instantly done. Vain is this struggle.
Then take away your hands and silently put up with your defeat, my heart, and think it
your good fortune to sit perfectly still where you are placed.
These my lamps are blown out at every little puff of wind, and trying to light them I
forget all else again and again.
But I shall be wise this time and wait in the dark, spreading my mat on the floor; and
whenever it is thy pleasure, my lord, come silently and take thy seat here.
I dive down into the depth of the ocean of forms, hoping to gain the perfect pearl of
No more sailing from harbour to harbour with this my weather-beaten boat. The days
are long passed when my sport was to be tossed on waves.
And now I am eager to die into the deatess.
Into the audience hall by the fathomless abyss where swells up the music of toneless
strings I shall take this harp of my life.
I shall tune it to the notes of forever, and when it has sobbed out its last utterance, lay
down my silent harp at the feet of the silent.
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